Thursday, December 29, 2011


2 days before bidding goodbye to 2011. The happiness, hardships, memories, experiences and journeys I went through will make me a better and mature person. I wish that the sadness will fade away and more importantly, God will be my protector and savior as another year ready to embrace its way through the path yet to be known.

To family who I miss everyday,
To friends who shall be in my mind always,
To loved one who will be my best friend forever,

Cherish this year, wrapping the world with the nakedness of mind as more things are yet to be discovered and learnt.

To 2012, hope you'll be kind to me. Cause I need it to get through another chapter of life.

ps: result to come out. forgetting to breathe again

Saturday, December 10, 2011


A note to myself:

Congratulations! You are officially 21, which means you are now eligible to vote, to buy alcohol in the States for Sara during our next field trip (joke:P), and you are now in the prime age of getting hitched.

Congratulations for successfully obtaining everything you want in life (studies, friends, experience).

Congratulations for making your family proud of your achievement, so far.


I hope to look back at this moment ten years from now where I will be a critically acclaimed geologist, with beautiful family and blessings from God.

Monday, November 7, 2011


Praise to the great Lord for every blessings, in every humanely form I can take and savor for the next chapters in life. Study has been good though there are still rooms for improvement (eg: doing report instead of updating blog:P), family is doing great, friends are back and ready to share laughter once again (I sincerely miss every single one of you), romance has been a smooth sailing and more opportunities for self-improvement.

I'm utterly excited for the leadership symposium. This would be my official solo workshop/seminar and I'm a little nervous on what to expect from the 3-days program. Well, I mean this is definitely a good thing as it will give a better chance for me to apply for SIFT (which reminds me that I have to work on my resume etc after all assignments are done) but I'm still nervous. Probably a little skeptical but hey, that's what I am.

Winter is coming and Cuba is calling. All I need is to find ways to get a lot of money, ASAP. Any ideas?

ps: US Visa is not yet done:(
pss: I should really apply for one like, now!

Thursday, October 20, 2011


My cats love anything that produces scratchy sound and soft that they can bit into them while pretending they have a mouse in their mouth. The first few days were astonishingly funny as they went around the house, circling every corner, waiting in front of every door just to have a peek of what hidden behind those doors.

These 2 weeks are crazy. Well, I secured a part time job on campus with the Physics Department which is literally across the street from Geology building with a decent pay. I couldn't be happier. The downsides are chains of midterms and assignments. 1 lab report, 2 lab journals, 2 midterms, 1 field trip and work starts on Monday. Ah, couldn't find a better day to start work. Ok Tommy, don't bite me.

I should get my USA visa done by next month so next holiday plan can be accomplished. Colorado, Malaysia. Applying for summer job should be the next big thing in my agenda, whether mining or oil and gas industry, doesn't really matter. What's important is that experience and
Introducing, Darcy and Tommy.

Friday, September 16, 2011


New semester just started. Hyped out with the timetable and workloads. Igneous and metamorphic class, sedimentary, geophysical and archaeology are enough to make me stressed out for a bit even the first week is just over. Anyway, the good news are:

1. 2 inner-state field trips. Bamcroft and Oshawa.
2. Colorado field trip! Crazy. Urlich is an amazing prof and is this works out, geology IS the coolest field ever.

Ahnaf gets to go to Peking, China around November. Awesome.
Cuba for winter. Life is treating me well.


Saturday, September 3, 2011


A shout out to best friend, boyfriend and everything I want him to be... Ahnaf.

Turning 23 is not that bad. Plus, you get to celebrate it with me this year (well, that is when we get back to TO of course). Below is a list of my wishes to you:

1. all the best for your final year
2. may your life will be blessed by God
3. may you find the ultimate happiness
4. get a job, get married and have beautiful kids like you always want

I love you so much temok/gumuk!:D

Saturday, August 20, 2011


And well, there she is, my replacement. If you are reading this and you have the slightest hunch that the YOU I'm referring to is well, YOU... I only have this to say.

You should find someone better, prettier than me.

I feel good about you my baby. Our secret, big plan next year must be done for sure. Can't wait another second without calling you my soul mate.
2 months to go! :)

Thursday, August 11, 2011


It makes me want to puke when "non-utaraian" (people who weren't born or raised in the northern parts) try their ass off to speak "utara". I have the liability to say that because I am fluent in it. Simply because my mom was from Kedah and the whole maternal sides do not speak other accents except "utara" despite residing in Kuala Lumpur for at least 25 years. Do not tell me not to brag about it because I can definitely survive and no vendors/sellers can tell me fibs about any ridiculous prices or offers they have to offer me if fate was to put me in one of the northern states.

Whenever actors spoke their lines and tried to convince the audiences on how good they can be when it came to the necessity to put on the accent (as to fulfill the needs from the directors and scriptwriters)... it was sad just to know their efforts were nothing but simply jokes on themselves. Well, that is a good feeling compare to anguish as the actings were shameful plays on the "utarian".


Because "utarian" do not speak that way.

So don't you dare speak/put on any accents if you are not fluent because it makes me either want to puke or give you a damn good slap.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011


Facebook, Twitter, blog, you name it. In this cloudy afternoon I should be sweeping the dusty floor and not sitting on the chair updating my blog. But the duty can wait.

Friends come and go. You might call him your best friend but he may not feel the same way about it. Humm weird. So, should you still call him your BFF? In this ever changing world, where everybody (literally everybody) is connected with the next person by at most a chain of 6 people they ever encountered in life, you can't help but the feel sad when a person you used to treasure somehow abandoning the God-forsaken-memories for a better or more acceptable people. The 'Hi's and hello's' are just another wall spam on his wall. Maybe this is a sign for a fresh, new start.

So kudos to you dear friend. If you ever consider of re-kindling our friendship, you know where to find me. But for now, I have better things to do e.g. cleaning my room.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011


Often wonder if the world is now a limitless place for privacy. With all the latest social network sites, people can get connected from across the globe. But do we really have to put for God's sake every freaking tiny little thing for the world to know and to see? My relationship with social network (SN) is bittersweet. Pretty naive for me to put my world for everyone to look at and talk about. Now, is privacy a luxury or we simply succumb to the needs of being in the "IT" society who is constantly letting people to creep on our life without knowing it is happening.

Ramadhan is just 4 days away and I'm truly excited for it. My first Ramadhan in Canada was a bundle of joy. Haha not to say I really enjoyed it but to be able to say "I'm fasting" was as hard as breaking pieces of rock from a priceless fossil. So, are you ready for it?

Monday, July 18, 2011


Approaching 21, felt time passes by like the speed of light. Leaving me hanging whenever boredom kicks the door. Have I learned enough to keep my sanity at bay, should I start wishing for good fortune? Maybe fate will take me to the unknown world. Full of secrecy and unexpected visitors.

Should we grow up and be matured as what people expected? I wonder how to answer this question. Maybe I will have more time if the distractions of keeping grudge can be eliminated. Ah love. Speaking of it. I may have found my true love. Not my first, but something about this particular feeling of fluttering heart and skip-a-beat-kinda-thing whenever I see him after weeks of being apart.

So does God has a bigger plan for me? I think yes.

Saturday, July 16, 2011


You are not a Malaysian if you dislike/hate food. Wherever you go, people would just make themselves available for 'food feast' or shall I say, kenduri? Pennyless, effortless, and all you have to do is dress up and make yourself presentable as the bride/groom's friend. A complete package meal with all the necessities in the food pyramid is fulfilled. Well, minus the fat and cholesterol percentage which un-surprisingly manage to exceed the amount required by one's body.

I always love food. I can't think of any moments where this word can be a nightmare to me. Despite all the harsh words I said about food whenever the number on the weighing scale increased, deep down in my stomach I would never hate them. In fact, you should cherish this magnificent gift. Being myself whose culinary skill is close to null, I occasionally find myself
envying those who can cook. Bahaaaa more things to learn then!

So, don't ever take it seriously if I start to rant about food 'cause now you know, if I'm down, get me a chocolate cake and I will be all good again.
ahhhh much love in this world, eh?

Tuesday, July 12, 2011


It all comes down on how you define life. Your goals, your hurdles. After you have achieved whatever you wish for (night and day), do you ever stop to turn around and realise that you have forgotten your pure intention of being where you are now? I do that all the time.

Pure bliss and happy. That is how my life should be. I don't need anyone to tell me what to do, who should earn my respect, who should I care for because at the end of the day, I will be alone. All I ever wanted is a decent life with the ones I love.

Leave me if later you will find no interest of talking to me or perhaps saying hello when we bump into each other on the streets.

Ah life is good, eh?:)

Friday, July 1, 2011



i'm gonna screw you up

that's it

i'm so loaded with anger and frustration that i'm going to scream at your face

argh i need a pack of ice to cool myself down


Saturday, May 28, 2011


Poor... it feels darn bad when you are poor... if you are planning to come to Canada, especially TO, don't be shocked by the number of people sitting on the cold pavement with a Tim Horton's cup begging for a spare of change. I thought that Malaysia has enough beggars on the roadside but TO beats us like there is no tomorrow. I'm not trying to boast about being wealthy or how unlucky to survive with people's sympathy but I can't help to feel sorry for them. Dude, it is the govt. policy. If you are hardworking, know your way around the bureaucracy and with a bit of luck, you will have enough for living.

Summer here sucks. Wait, it is not summer YET. Yeah, cause it keeps on raining, with the sky so greyish-gloomi-ish, my goodness! I can bitch about this dreadful weather for centuries. Woah, mouth young lady, that is God's creation. Be grateful.

A week before my flightttttttttt (read this with a high pitch opera voice). Literally excited! But first to pack, to figure out where to put my horrendous boxes and shopping. Darn must go to Niagara.

I was wondering if I will be allowed to have a pet when I live in my new place next semester.


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Monday, May 9, 2011


It is nearly a perfect day when you wake up with everything seems synchronize, like a really good song that makes you slowly feel all warm inside. I am not going deep now because I am never good with emotions. Like with a snap, I can drain all the tears without stopping. Yeah, totally deep.

If life has not been good to you, turn back and look at what had you done before. Try every single damn thing to make rectify all the damaged. And pray. Because that is the best thing to do. Don't you dare tell me that I should be corrected since my status is at stake. Damn you. Shut your face because you are worse than me.


Be good to mama please:)

Tuesday, May 3, 2011


(The good 'ol University College and Hart House)

I didn't bid goodbye to winter. How sad. The crazy weather in this big city has totally makes me feel all weird. It can get so cold that it feels like winter all over again and the next day, you wake up with the Sun shines brightly and splashes its ray directly onto your face. Not a bitch.

Life is not an asshole if you treat it nicely. Despite all the mishaps and the bad lucks you had encountered before, there is always that hidden someone laughing at you while hiding in a bush. That person is a bitch. But life.. No, it is not. So yeah. Gear up for the fun in life because hey, you may never know if you will see the Sun again tomorrow.

First year isn't so bad.

Second year.. let's see.. 4 months from now:)

Wednesday, April 20, 2011


The point where you are bored to death!

Like Now
I must not complaint or say anything

Ahnaf, please finish your exam now:(

Sunday, April 17, 2011


Oh yeah.. That is just great. The only day when you woke up feeling hungry and remembered about your KitKat sitting on your shelves, and you noticed it was gone... You felt crushed, disappointed, rejected by the whole society who created chocolate as one of the most amazing wonders your taste bud can ever experience. You hate the world to the core.

That is exactly what I am feeling now. F*** you for eating my KitKat. I bid you goodbye in a few days and pray that I will never, ever bump into you,
ever, again.

Can't wait to get my own sweet place next semester. Hell yeah I am going to adopt 8 cats, 10 fishes, a bird and 2 turtles and make my own little heaven where no one can steal my KitKat (unless your cats figure out how to unwrap the KitKat wrapper).

Saturday, April 16, 2011


Owhhhh yeahhhhhhhh!

Wrapping up my first year with something memorable, sweet, hassle-free and annoyingly fun. Let's see.. I am not missing facebook like I used to think before deactivating it prior exam. Totally the world still spins, not missing even a fraction of milisecond revolution, obeying the Physics Law. Counting days to go back and ..... AHHHHH... the smell of KL's polluted air. That is what my olfactory sense desires. Not to forget the food. Now I cherish, enjoy, love and CRAVE for Malaysian food more than ever. Agree with me that you are tired with the western food.

So, gear up for summer!

Tuesday, February 8, 2011



Life is great:)

Saturday, January 15, 2011


So gear up, it's a brand new year. Significantly adding another year to your-owh-i'm-so-old-now face. I wasn't planning to do any resolution because I'm 99.9999999% sure that it will end up being another incomplete mission. But it won't hurt to just secretly say that I want to be better in all aspects this year. Going to cut down all those junkies Facebook is throwing directly onto my face, drink more coffee or latte, be a devoted member of the gym and a good daughter, a humble Muslim and a good person who contributes less greenhouse gases than the rest of human population.

Winter break was decent. I didn't go anywhere. Downtown was my place and someday, I practically didn't do anything except woke up at 3 in the evening to find out that it was starting to get dark again. All I can said was, "well I miss the Sun again". But, it was all right. Little Italy is such a cute place. I can see old men watching football in bar and they conversed in either Spanish or Italian. It was as if seeing the old men in 'kedai kopi' or 'mamak' watching Piala Super.

So back to school! Back to the thick books and more things to memorise and less fun. Well it would be so ungrateful of me to keep sighing about life as a university student but sometimes you just can't shut your mouth! All I can say is CHILEEEE HERE I COMEEEE-AHHHHHHHHHHH!:D

Yoooooo! What's up with the new zodiac?! Thank you astrologers for adding a new sign and yeah guess what, I have the new zodiac sign! OPHIUCHUS! I prefer my old masculine Sagittarius. Now this new zodiac says that I am the attractor of good luck and jealousy. Sounds deep, eh.. Haha seriously I would only attract good luck to other people, NOT ME. I shall embrace Ophiuchus and wish that astrologers will not knock their heads on the wall and wake up in the morning saying, "Owh we should another sign!"

Because if you do, I'm going to kill you!

Hahahaha random!